WALKING THROUGH LIFE

«There are always shadows on our minds but clearness seems to gain over it. Nothing more dubious. We may be blinded by the light and still see in the darkness. The power of light is indeed strong and it attracts us like bugs to it. Therefore, we may be walking to blindness instead to enlightment pursuing just the light. Sometimes we need darkness in our lives and also some dimness. It is not all black or white, colorful or colorless. The gradients of life mixed with our expectations shape our emotions and feelings and also direct our thoughts towards new directions earlier unthinkable. Our will is helpless against these confluent waves of energy. We are not the owners of ourselves though we keep stubbornly wasting our strength pursuing the control of things. It is a waste of time. In that attempt we build up marvelous things, like love, friendships, literature, music, painting, sculpture, architecture, engineering, science and even create gods and religions filling the all firmament in the attempt to escape to void and loneliness in this far planet lost in the vastness of the universe. We can feel emptiness despite of being filled and we also can feel filled being almost empty. However, in the process we also create hate, grief, pain, trash, violence, wars. No education, magic counseling, excess of any kind whatsoever can provide us with the meaning of our own lives. We cannot only live with just one side/part of life. It is not being selfish or violent, superficial, or joyful sometimes that is the big problem. We need both what you call our good and bad feelings to survive and live. Perhaps we expect too much of ourselves and a big lot of the others towards the size of the task we propose to achieve. So being humble toward our neighbors and stop putting our ideals, goals, will and objectives in front of our human and non human beings, learning how to forgive lapses, disabilities, mistakes and failures either in us or in our fellows seems to be the hardest way to go but maybe also the only available if in fact we seek the path of greater peacefulness which is not limited to a simple passivity or to a mere pacifism. We also must stop the fury that lead us into unrestrained action to get, to control, to achieve power over everything moved almost exclusively by our deepest fears. I think that this is enough for now to me today.»